Chasing Chelseas Thoughts has returned...
Friday, December 30, 2011
Chasing Chelseas Thoughts has returned...
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
sometimes i let myself think of what is going on and what is happening and i am devastated....
i don't understand how certain individuals can make a portrait of another human being they have met once and base the oil colours they choose to paint with based on turpentine lies.
i am trying my hardest to avoid perseverating on what others choose to hear, see and believe, because i know my heart, my actions and what has gone on. i know who i am and i know the truth.
it doesn't change that what others say and do affects me, i am human and not stone.
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Twas The Night Before Christmas...
My four awesome churrins
Grandpa and Noni
Rylie gymnasticing up the treadmill
The great grand kids with their great grandad
Great Grandma Klohn with 6 of her 28 great grand children!
Christmas Eve jammies and ornaments (the boys jammie pants seem to fit more like leggings LOL)
Great Grandad and Ty
Me and the nonster
Livie is just slightly excited for tomorrow morning!
Rylie has been attached to titi since she came home from Uni to spend Christmas with the fam.
Ty has Wii radar and can find one at any location he frequents!
Me n my baby who is not such a little baby any more :(
I love this little nugget of mine
As for my Christmas Eve excitement it is still as grandiose as when I was a child. There are no presents under the tree for me this year, no stocking filled with goodies. My excitement is for my children, to see their faces and their giggles. To enjoy in this moment with them and create happy memories and continue on with our traditions.
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Coulson, Ty and Billy, in 10 years these buds will still be grooving friends! Its so nice to see, I moved around so much I wasn't able to have a friend all through school. However those I made in High School are still in my heart :)
Ty and his bud Coulson post play.. Ty is a parakeet and Coulson is a turtle! They were grooving dudes! I am so proud of Ty he memorized all the songs and all of his lines! He even surprised the audience with a parakeet accent!
Moustache's make me laugh
This dude makes me laugh and smile and wonder where he gets his mischievousness from?
Ty posing next to our homemade snowglobes:) What a great activity!
Ty's snowglobe contains a t-rex skull, which he placed next to his dino's on display.
Rylies were placed next to her angel display in her room.
Not too sure where they are looking or why Rylie looks slightly possessed?
While out in the community nursing and caring for my brain injured clients, I ran into a nurse I worked with at CRT which is my dream job, and she gave me a big hug and said they would love for me to do my placement with them. It made me cry and squeal at the same time. I put my heart and soul into nursing and I feel a sense of accomplishment when I am doing it. My prayers are pleading I get this placement, no night shifts, right by my house and amazing people to learn from.
I have learnt more from my brain injured clients then I could ever have imagined, my one patient has agnosia of objects, names and faces. So basically he has no memory of an object after he turns away from it, the same goes for names and faces, so each time he looks at you, you are new and unfamiliar.
I cannot imagine literally living in confusion every waking minute of my life, not knowing what a hot dog is and what you do with it, not knowing my name, not knowing a fork from a cat. And yet he smiles and says he is blessed, he knows he lives somewhere where people act like they know him, even though he doesn't remember them. All he asks is that he has root beer and chips... So simple yet pure.
We had an adventure yesterday, he told me if i kept a (held up a fork) didn't know the name, in my hand instead of the ''black thing that vibrates'' (my phone), i would never have to say to the (fork), ''why didn't you call me back''. I laughed so hard, he has what I consider to be a very sad life and yet he tell me all the time mine is too busy and I need to nap more, so I don't stretch my mouth (yawn).
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Of all the awful things he has done in the past 40 odd days some blessings have come out of it... My children have been referred to art therapy, I have been referred to therapy at no cost, I am no longer in his control and living at his will. I feel like I am coming back and that feels good.
As for the privacy of my blog, he is very hurtful, passive aggressive and narcissistic (in my humble opinion) and I don't feel safe with him knowing any of my comings and goings.
As for the awesome pics Darcy was going to take, a few of the kids began to sob when they found out we were having family pics and he was no longer here, so I have postponed them until they are more healed. I do not have the capability to ignore the hurt and pain that he has caused my children, Ill get over what he has done and is doing to me, but my kids are not doing so well. It breaks my heart that they are going through this because I married him, I married someone who is not the man he presented as.
As for me and the kids we will keep smiling, making snow globes and laughing that our female cat is actually a male!
oh and I failed as the tooth fairy last night, however I recovered with 'she had to fly from China and was worried she would not get here till 6 am and didn't want you to see her, so she entrusted me to leave the toonies and....... I fell asleep and forgot.......'
Enter tears and mum how could you's? so after some alone time Ty decided my love based fib made sense and he would forgive both she and I if we rectified it while he was at school. Which means I need to retrieve a letter from the tooth fairy, candy and something dinosaurish.
Monday, December 12, 2011
Ty is miffed shall we say that I did not give him a pre picture hair cut! I however think he rocks the doo....
Rylie loves all things glitz and was upset they did not take a stand up shot that showed her bangels and bling. And she cannot understand how you cannot see her yellow dangling earings, I love it!
I am not the private blog type, however there have been things that have happened this past month that have made me aware that a certain individual is highly deceitful and manipulative and so I need to protect our comings and goings.
So send me an email on here if you would like to view my blog send me your email on here or to my email at email@example.com
Posted by Chelsea at 10:17 AM
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Ty and Alex rockin out at a sleep over to a Wii dance game
Chelsea bought a Wii? Yes I did I caved and I love it, however the junk in my trunk is reducing its levy as I workout to Zumba Wii Fitness (no photo :))
When Ty and I were grooming miss Azlan, I noticed two tumors directly above her uterus....I ran to my neighbours house and she looked at me like I had lost my marbles and explained that it seemed a lot like the topography of a MALE cat! Enter major laughs.... Azlan is not a girl she is a boy... I may not recover
When Noni smile rubs his tummy and says I gotta fart with a yogurt mustache I love him more.
Where nativity scenes are placed happiness follows.
When Christ is kept in Christmas glad tidings come.
I've done a lot of sole searching as of recently and I have decided that I need to do the things that I know will bring me comfort, I need to pull my mis matched socks up and realize that my cards are high and my blessings large. I know some feel I have this 'thing' with being divorced, I do not, I have a 'thing' for happiness and I simply have not found that with a husband. It makes me sad, I cry and ask a lot of questions. All I know is I don't know much but what I do know can and will get me through my difficult times.
Going about motherhood on my own is hard, really hard, I know cause I have been here before... I swore I would never be here again however I am only in control of myself and I cant make people want to change and work together.
I have come to realize during these past few months that I am blessed with friends and family far and near who have supported me, taken my kids for play dates and brought chicken noodle soup to my door. I thank you, for listening, for helping and for caring.
For the first time in a long time I feel the need to be closer... Closer to the temple
Saturday, December 3, 2011
With the advice of a professional I put together worry boxes for each child.