This month has been a month of digger proportions, I felt like I was running in quick sand only to have the universe digging my grave at the same time.
However as much as husband leaving, clutch going, brakes kaput, new tires needed, end of the semester = way too many essays to count, starting my new clinical placement, play dates, 4 very very sad and confused children...
There were always birds of paradise flying by to give me a helping hand, whether it be financially, emotionally or dinners at my door.
With the advice of a professional I put together worry boxes for each child.
1. hand crocheted animal stress ball from Austria (Thanks Etsy)
2. note pad to write of color the negative feelings and emotions onto paper
3. crayons for expressing emotions
4. wintergreen mints, cause they rock
5. a pen for my writing savy children
6. a family picture to make them smile
The boxes have been a hit and Rylie is even using hers at school and is having an easier time expressing herself.
When the above flower arrangement arrived at my door, I was at a brain injured clinic working and my mum phoned to tell me about the beautiful flowers waiting for me :) I reconnected with my birth father in August and he has been a daily support both emotionally and financially and the flowers took the cake, he knew I had had the worst day so far and wanted to send me a 'floral hug'.
My parents here have been wonderful as well and I am blessed to have 3 parents who love me and the kiddos.
I have a lot of support from people and friends and I am grateful, I am grateful I am starting to like myself again, I am grateful my house is peaceful and decorated for Christmas since the beginning of November! I am grateful for the daily reminders my children give me to smile and enjoy life. I am grateful I write my nursing exams in May!!! Only one last semester WOOHOOO
I am sad, devastated and confused, however I know my Heavenly Father is looking out for me and I will come out on top of the mountain that seems to have collapsed.