Holidays

Holidays have sadly become hard for me, I've grown more in 12 months then I had hoped too... seen the love of family members, and experienced support from co workers in a way I could not have imagined. As we try to pick up the pieces and create new memories it saddens me that past memories are tainted. Saddens me that we have to swim harder to just breathe.

I know we will make it out shining that we will find peace, the journey some days is harder than others.

I have family and friends near and far people that have chosen to be there for me and have not passed judgment . For that I am grateful....

I think sometimes that I think too much especially when my mind is racing of what is expected of me both spoken and non verbal. I think about bills, I think about love, I think about why and I think about time.

I find myself overwhelmed with the tasks ahead and an reminded of my days with four kids under the age of 3! I did it I smiled I laughed and I was happy surely four kids under the age of 8 is more than doable its attainable.

I have been blessed with determined little fighters who together with me, there typically overwhelmed mum get through each day. There has not been one day in the past year that I have not been loved and helped by those that mean the world to me. I truly don't know how to begin to repay them.....

This holiday season we will eat too much chocolate... We will create lasting memories we simply cannot forget as its the first holiday in years we are safe and can just be as we are.

Merry Christmas!!! Happy Chanukah and just a really good December!!!!