I WAS INFORMED

Background:

I have worked 111 hours in 8 days!

Why:

I am the Manager of CHATTERS Salon

Result:

Highly emotional, exhausted, moody,guilty, yada dada dada

7 minutes ago:

While crying in the bahroom, Ty informs me he needs to "speak with me privately".

I enter his dark bedroom, and this is what followed;

ty- mum have a seat

...i sit on the toy chest he sits on his club chair...

ty-first of all why are you crying?

me-because i miss you and i hate working so much and i feel guilty

...followed by uncontrolable tears...

ty-ok so you miss us and we know that and you miss us during the day, and we see you at

breakfast and that is during the day so it's ok

... take note,this converstion is taking place in the dark and I am wrapped in a childrens sized

towel crying on a toy chest while my soon to be 5 yr old is dealing with me...

ty-so you cried a lot last summer because of the sugar ants in the house and this summer you

killed them all and you dont cry so soon it will be like that with work.

me- i love you TY!

ty- i know i love you too mum, you looked really pretty today in your black shirt with your necklace mum and i love you more than dad but i love dad the best!

pause

sigh

ty-so i totally love you like... totally 30 points!

me-i love you TY thank you for being understanding of me working so much

ty- mum some kids never see their mums and we see you at breakfast and you get the next day off and it is my birthday and i love you. so no more crying because you do see us during the day at breakfast and at night and we dont have ants!

ty- so please put Oliver to bed and let dad know that I need to speak with him!

me- ok! I love you TY, todd, ty needs to speak with you...

To Smile and Pause

Lately as I drive to work I have been making a mental note of all things that make me smile. I also intended to snap a memory of such things, however I have not been too successful with the later part.

For the past 5 years I drive up Departure Bay Rd. at least 5 times a week. At least 2 of those 5 times I see a couple in their 70's holding hands and carrying their grocery bags.

This makes me smile

Finding 2 chocolate chip cookies in the glove box, that My Lovely hid there! (which I then ate)

This makes me smile

Seeing the Pacific Biological Station where Ty and I shared an afternoon of Biological Bliss

This makes me smile

Driving past the Mazda dealership where I bought my 1st vehicle all by myself with Ty and

Rylie in the double stroller and Livie and Oli in my tummy

This makes me smile

Driving past the BC Ferries, remembering that is how Todd first arrived on the Island to meet me

This makes me smile

The black and white bunny that live on the 10x10 patch of grass at the Mitsubishi dealership

This makes me smile

Remembering how just yesterday my sons wisdom is endless.

While I lay afloat in the lake Ty said "mum you need to get out more, you are as white as a snowflake."

This makes me smile

I have been trying to think of happiness as opposed to unhappy grumpiness. I must be doing better in the grumpy department because I have been acting more nasty than lovely. Maybe it's just me in my imperfect form but I find it hard to get out of the rut I seem to have dug for myself. So in order for me to jump start myself I am declaring the rest of this week

"Find Happiness, Smile, Pause, then Succeed Partial Week"

Not only am I going to seek out all things that make me happy I am actually going to create more happiness. In hope that I will have absolutely no reason to be a grumpy lumpy.
On a side note I would like to say that I am going to find 5 things surrounding bed time that are positive. I loose my cool way too quickly at bedtime.

I now sit here typing, feeling guilty for the way I acted as I put my kids to sleep. Sure, Miss Rylie was an upscale version of horrible but I was the last face she saw before she lay her screaming head to sleep and I want that thought to be a sweet one. I know I wont succeed every night at this however I want to try to be a more calm and patient mum.

Happy thoughts = Happy mum = Happy kids = Greatful husband

This photo makes me smile

Enjoy

My Lovlies

Ty-conentrating Rylie-multi tasking Olivia- done Oliver-looking for more cookies

I love you Rylie

Love ya Ty

Love you livie lou and Oli

She was trying so hard!

love love love it!

Look closely... theres a frog!

June 2009

Who You Talkin To?

Chelsea- who am I talking to you ask?, well as a matter of fact it is the same person who is asking the ridiculous question... Me! This mysterious behaviour was brought to my attention while driving with the kids.

Ty- mum who are you talkin to?
Me- no one I am singing
Ty- no, you are definitely talking!
Me- good point

So I got to thinking, and I do talk to myself and quite frequently, we- meaning me, myself and I- discuss the mysteries of children and why they never seem to listen and why I still have 40 too many pounds on my bones, why everyone wants to be blond this time of year, why armpit hair never grows in the same direction, why the women's shelter needs to build an addition, why I had ants tattooed on my leg, why I was blessed with such a wonderful husband, why a 12 year old is in the back of a police car, why money doesn't grow on trees or in the ground, why some women have a baby and look like they never even went through puberty, why it feel like no matter how much I do I always feel behind?

Todd- well he has been talking to the pipes and more specifically drywall! The kitchen in our place is being redone by... Todd. I call throughout the day because I miss him and I am sure my mum calls to check on him, but for the most part of this past week he has been chit chatting with all things kitchen remodeling.


Rylie- I am convinced she is a fairy in disguise, you know how Tinkerbell can go from sweet and light filled to a raging ball of fire? Well that is Rylie Dawn Alwyn! Alwyn means, friend of the elves and it suits her to a tee!! A couple weeks ago while I was putting her to bed she said " mum, I can't see the fairies tonight, where are they?"

Oliver- He talks on any and every phone he can get his hands on! He loves phones and has a rather Donald Duck voice. We finally have a few more solutions for his horrid Eczema, so hopefully in the next two weeks his raw flesh will not be so raw anymore.


Ty- Ty loves to talk, he inherited it quite naturally from none other than myself! However lately he has taken quite a liking to singing! The Primary president told me how stupendously amazing he did and how he knows all the words! When I asked him why he likes singing so much he said " I love to sing because it helps me learn more".


Olivia- Cassius, Cassius, Cassius. Olivia loves her cousin Cassius and loves to say his name, she has yet to master mum, mommy or mom. At this point in my motherly career I would take any mmm sounding word, but no for now she will stick to Cassius!


* Due to the sheer and utter chaos at my home I have zilch, nadda, no clue where my camera is, so when I locate it I will take pictures of my arms which have been nominated to be the new National Flag for Zambia! I will also record Ty singing 18 Wheeler and Olivia saying Cassius.**

** If you currently only talk to other people I highly recommend you talk to yourself as you control the whole conversation which of course is the main reason I do it!***

Tidbits for my Lovely

Babe, I just wanted to let you know how absolutely stupendously scrumdidilyumptious you are!!!
I love that our kids have an amazing father to look up to- literally and through your example-

I love that I have a man who loves me for me.

I love that we laugh.

I love that you love chocolate.

I love that I love chocolate.
and
together we can eat it together and laugh!!

I miss you when I am at work.

I know we are more than just husband and wife.
We are in love and want to be together.

I love how patient you are.
-it means I don't have to attempt to be-

I love how you are kind.

I love that you let me cut your hair the way I like it.

I love that you let me wear your sweatshirts
and when you see that I stain them you smile.

I love that you love getting your feet rubbed.

I love you
5 X 5 + INFINITY

and so do these 5...

Men I lOVE

Grandpa Klohn
I cling to memories long ago
when life flowed through your veins

I wonder as the time goes by
will I miss you less?
In reclined position, letter opener in hand
a smile so large
A sense of humor I adore
one you loved to share
Receiving laminated words of wisdom
through the mail
I loved you then, I love you now
Forever and Always
My Grandpa
you'll be

You're ring, a tangible piece of you, I wear around my neck.

Todd you are a distinguished example of what a father should be and for that, I thank you.

Dad, thank you for unconditionally loving me and Ty, Rylie, Oliver and Olivia.

With these three men carving their path my two "mini-men" have a great start!!

Here's to future fathers and many more fathers days!!!

Inspiration

My Inspiration for
Turquoise in June

(More photos to come... This is from the kids photo shoot on Wednesday from my awesome photographer. Check out her link to the right)