I've come to the realization that I don't do crowds nor do I socialize well in large groups. I'm 100% fine with both however others are not!
Take for example: four children on my own Canada day celebrations= head count every 30 seconds, water bottle dispersment every 3 minutes, crowd control, planning where to go next, ignoring the not so lovelies out and about.... It's stressful
I'm ok with stress,I'm ok with working hard, I'm not too ok with others scorn for how they perceive me to be... That is what I'm working on.