Lots of Spills and Sunshine

Lots of Spills and Sunshine

Thursday, July 5, 2012

8 mths

I have been through 8 months of purgatory my children have cried screamed laughed hugged and broken down.... I have begged pleaded and pored my heart n soul to soul one who would listen..... We are here riding our bikes we eat our veggies and brush our teeth, we floss and bathe and pray our routines help us make it to the next day. I work front lines mental health and addictions and as of today im breaking.... I get up work wonderful and love and engage in therapeutic relationships..... My family has been a beyond support and I would not be typing without their support. So here I am on a Thursday baking beets n zucchini yearning for simplicity. I want my kids to be free of the pain they are in.. Praying and begging they will i didn't know and I if I did I would have saved them. I didn't know I had no idea and for that I will cry and if I have to work 5 jobs to get them the help they deserve I will . They all came to me when people said I had too many.... They have brought me love and I will teach them how to have hope and how to define their future


Tamara Chamberlain said...

If there is one thing I learned through my year of hell is that God is always watching out for us. As much as I try and make sense of why I had to go through such hard things it is starting to make sense. You are one tough girl and those kids will get through this. Just keep carrying on. I tell myself this on my bad days. And now I have seen that there is more happiness beyond it all. I know you will get to that point and be able to look back and be amazed at everything you were able to endure and I pray that day comes soon for you.

ColleenDown said...

And all of this life manure is going to become great compost for the book that will eventually grow out of your experiences--can't wait to read it!! (Love these pictures of your kids!)

The Author said...

I have been thinking about you so much. you, and your babies, are regularly part of my prayers. you are so strong, Chels, I know you will triumph.

Chelsea said...

You ladies are so strong in my eyes!!!! Thank u so very much for your kind words xoxo