You Drive Me Nuts

YOU DRIVE ME NUTS... I DRIVE MYSELF NUTS

Ok so it's not before dawn but it is kind of close... While Todd was cleaning out my parents lap top we found the below clip of Ty from a couple years back. (I cannot download it yet but as soon as I can I will- In the clip Ty is saying "you drive me nuts" over and over)

On our 1st date alone

How adorably cute if I do say so myself! Not to mention the ironic-ness of the catch phrase ' you drive me nuts!' To put it bluntly I have been going nuts and that is part of the reason I have not been my usual 'happy blogger' embarking in other's journeys and frolicking on etsy for hours. I have lost control of the control part of my life and found my self too tired and or too grumpy to do anything about it.

UNTIL NOW!

Between 6 days a week at my paid job and full time as a mum and wife I have not been able to manage it. I feel when I succeed in one area I am failing miserably in another. I can't seem to get caught up on anything, I like food way too much, I swear A LOT, I don't read my scriptures as often as I should. The one thing I seem very consistent at is prayer!! LOL I seem to be doing that about every 10 seconds, I just need to pick up my lazy butt and do something about my attitude.

For those that know me, you know I can... well... exaggerate and this whole rotten attitude I have has become a monstrosity and that is no exaggeration.

Despite the coincidence of my attitude adjustment falling on New Years Day, I don't want this to be a token resolution, I actually cant stand to be around myself I am afraid I might bite my own head off!

I can assure you I will slip up and be grumpy, eat a little too much chocolate and occasionally swear, but no more of this poor me, too tired bologna. At least I have a roof over my head a job to go to 6 days a week and a family that loves me unconditionally.

Here are some photographic reasons I should not be grumpy...

Olivia at 8 mths!

Dec.08 Todd drove through over 10 blizzards and 60 hours straight to be with me and our kids for Christmas
I make a mean "twin birthday carnival cake"!

I would include more photos however our laptop hit the dust and it contained them all! But on the bright side they were of my bad side so not much lost!

Heres to a UNGRUMPY New Year!

To Smile and Pause

Lately as I drive to work I have been making a mental note of all things that make me smile. I also intended to snap a memory of such things, however I have not been too successful with the later part.

For the past 5 years I drive up Departure Bay Rd. at least 5 times a week. At least 2 of those 5 times I see a couple in their 70's holding hands and carrying their grocery bags.

This makes me smile

Finding 2 chocolate chip cookies in the glove box, that My Lovely hid there! (which I then ate)

This makes me smile

Seeing the Pacific Biological Station where Ty and I shared an afternoon of Biological Bliss

This makes me smile

Driving past the Mazda dealership where I bought my 1st vehicle all by myself with Ty and

Rylie in the double stroller and Livie and Oli in my tummy

This makes me smile

Driving past the BC Ferries, remembering that is how Todd first arrived on the Island to meet me

This makes me smile

The black and white bunny that live on the 10x10 patch of grass at the Mitsubishi dealership

This makes me smile

Remembering how just yesterday my sons wisdom is endless.

While I lay afloat in the lake Ty said "mum you need to get out more, you are as white as a snowflake."

This makes me smile

I have been trying to think of happiness as opposed to unhappy grumpiness. I must be doing better in the grumpy department because I have been acting more nasty than lovely. Maybe it's just me in my imperfect form but I find it hard to get out of the rut I seem to have dug for myself. So in order for me to jump start myself I am declaring the rest of this week

"Find Happiness, Smile, Pause, then Succeed Partial Week"

Not only am I going to seek out all things that make me happy I am actually going to create more happiness. In hope that I will have absolutely no reason to be a grumpy lumpy.
On a side note I would like to say that I am going to find 5 things surrounding bed time that are positive. I loose my cool way too quickly at bedtime.

I now sit here typing, feeling guilty for the way I acted as I put my kids to sleep. Sure, Miss Rylie was an upscale version of horrible but I was the last face she saw before she lay her screaming head to sleep and I want that thought to be a sweet one. I know I wont succeed every night at this however I want to try to be a more calm and patient mum.

Happy thoughts = Happy mum = Happy kids = Greatful husband

This photo makes me smile